Sunday, February 1, 2009

Our everchanging, little wonder

About November of this past year, Kailyn decided she didn’t want to grow anymore, for fear that she would no longer be our daughter. After our heart to heart talk and an explanation that no matter how big she got she would always be our daughter things were a bit better. Now it is February and her whole outlook on “growing bigger” has completely changed! We were just having a little chat one day and she looked at me and said, “Mom, when I grow up will I be just like you?” I asked her what she meant and she said, “Will I be your size?” I told her that everyday you grow a little and that one day she would be as big as mommy (probably taller though). She seemed very happy about this! Ever since out little talk, she is constantly asking when she will be mommy’s size and is she really growing. It seems that in a mere four months she went from wanting to stay little forever to wanting to grow bigger immediately. Now I don’t like this at all, because if it were up to me I would freeze time and keep her little forever! I explained to her that she can’t really see herself grow everyday, but it is happening. In addition to wanting to grow up faster, she wants to do everything I do! I find this totally cute and simply sweet. The other day we were getting ready to go somewhere and I told her that I had to get a shower, blow dry my hair and get ready. She stopped playing and said, “Oh yeah, me too! I want to do everything you do.” Since we had ample time to get ready I decided to humor her. I let her take a shower, blew dry her hair and she picked out her clothes (something she has started doing A LOT). When I was putting on some make-up before we headed out the door she said, “Oh, I need some of that too. The sparkly kind.” Now this is a really touchy area for me, because I think girls now a day wear make-up WAY too young! I know I was the exception, because I didn’t start wearing make-up until my sophomore year of high school, and even then it was only mascara, but I still object to starting make-up too young. So, this was my dilemma…what to do, what to do. Then I realized my daughter was only four and the only reason she wanted make-up was to be like mommy, not to impress the four and five year old boys at her pre-school! So yes, I gave in. For those few moments we played with make-up, I let her help me with mine and I proceeded to put a few “sparkles” on her eyes. So we have started yet another chapter of life and changes are coming along faster than I can process them! It seems everyday she changes and grows and I am sure before we know it she will be wanting to wear make-up to impress those boys I wasn’t so worried about years before!